61. Johnson’s Hill Locks by Narrowboat! Colin Opens Up About Mental Health and Self-Harm.


Hello… Hello… How are you?
Ooooh it’s early… It is early slept well last night though. Yes… All those locks coming out at Wigan,
what do you mean yeah? You just stood there steering in a straight line.
Pfffft! So tiring Last time we did the weekend fight, today
we’re going from, well we’re on the outskirts of Chorley before we come into
Chorley and we’re going to go through and then through 7 locks. I never
know whether it’s Johnson’s Hillock locks or Johnston’s Hill Lock or
Johnston’s Hill Locks. I don’t know I. I didn’t look.
It’s all load of hillocks to me to be honest [Laughs] I’m sure the diehards will tell me in the comments down below. Yes they will. how wrong I am and how wrong I’m pronouncing it and now I need to go back to school. But anyway… there we go… that’s the plan
for today. So it was doing the locks today I wonder….. I’ll do them. No, I like doing locks I know you do. I like doing locks.
So one little tip, if you’re mooring at Bridge 73 on the Leeds and Liverpool to go up to Frederick’s Ice Cream Parlour, don’t more right next to the bridge go down
maybe three, four, five boat lengths, there’s plenty of moorings. If you too close to
the bridge… it’s very noisy… especially during the day. They all use the picnic area there
from the ice-cream shop and it’s full of noisy kids. Unless you like the sound of
noisy kids I’d move down a few boat lengths. Nice and quiet at night time
isn’t it? Well yeah, but I mean you get a few there were like, not misbehaving
gangs they were just like groups of youths kind of smoking herbally type
things. But they didn’t cause any trouble. No not at all, you could just kind of hear like, mumbling. [Sniggers] Mumbling. Like high mumbling [Laughs] Oooh silver boat [Laughing] Oh my god I’m freaking out [Laughs]
So yeah… move down a little bit. Right we’ve got to get some engine
checks done. Lots of weed checks on the Leeds and Liverpool, have you noticed that?
We had to stop yesterday We’d only been going half an hour.
Yeah, and it’s like it’s like mop it is like solid thick weed just wrapping itself round. So we’re having to check that quite a lot
while we’re on here. So we’re going to do that, check the
engine oil, check the gearbox oil after yesterday and check the belts, the
coolants alright. You’ve got to do the washing up…
Check my zip….. check your zip he’s alright. Are you ready?
Yep. ONWARRRRD! [Music] That noise you can hear in the
background, well there’s actually two or three noises one is Dillon tapping
about. The washing. The washing machine and the M61 motorway. Which if you going
to Blackpool from Yorkshire which we used to do many times, you will look
passed here. Yeah. We’re at Botany Bay, this is Botany Bay permanent moorings and we’re just using the water point and the rubbish. Just a few metres further on is
Botany Bay itself so you’ll see some like musical footage of that as we pass it.
Where its going 🎶do do do do do do do🎶 [laughs] Thats where you see Botany bay and the yards in the bit of a musical montage that’s coming up 🎶do do do do🎶 that’s where we
nearly launched Narrowboat Silver Fox… but there was a…. Errrrr I wouldn’t say unpleasantness, the
nearly was unpleasantness. We we were booked to launch at Botany Bay and it
was just by chance that we called to ask a question and we were told, oh the cranes
not working now…. Thanks for telling us. Yeah. It all ended up all right in the
end and we launched at St Mary’s Marina in Rufford if you remember and all went swimmingly. Smoooooothly. I’m like a walking dictionary this morning.
Swimmingly. Full of many superfluous… I don’t even know what I’m talking about now.
You’re full of summat. I am full of something [laughs] We’re filling up with water and we’ve been
chatting too long so it could be overflowing at the bow by now.
Probably is. So we’re off again bye-bye….. Bye! [Music] So this is Botany Bay boat yard and
this is the crane originally that was supposed to launch Narrowboat Silver Fox.
Looks like Shadow is the next one in or out. In the end we ended up launching at
St Mary’s at Rufford. This place always reminds me of going
to Blackpool when I was kid. I always remember flying up the M61 and when I was a kid, which is like what… 10 years ago [laughs] This place used to be like, there used to
be activities and all sorts and it always looked really cool like a like a
medieval castle type thing and we always used to say ooohh can we go to
Botany Bay… and as I was like… No! So I never knew what it was like back
in the day, looks a bit sad now to be honest. Definitely not how I remember it [Music] Here we are…Top Lock, lock 58 just next to
bridge 85, they were alright weren’t they? Not the best looks we’ve ever done.
A locks a lock….. the Leakiest locks we’ve ever done. Oh yeah we got a bit wet.
Well the bow did [laughs]. Almost drowned the GoPro I’m dreading what that footage is
gonna turn out like. There’s also a pub just across the way there.
It’s called The Top Lock…. I don’t know why. It’s actually… The locks are not that good to
be honest they’re a bit leaky and some of the pounds are a bit low, but like the
scenery around it’s quite nice there’s like little picket fences that are all
freshly painted and on the off towpath side there’s like an extra little path with
like little bridges and it’s like a miniature golf course type thing it’s all
pretty…. All pretty…. All pretty… All pretty! The thing we did find was loads of weed, piles of it.
Yeah there’s a lot of weeds…. Piles! Yeah and the CRT guys were kind of just
pulling it out of the canal and piling it up. There’ll been doing that for
for… hever forever. For hever…. Thats posh innit. So anyway we both a bit tired,
Dillon is mooching around. He’s here. All the services are here so we’re gonna
ramp to the pot and fill it with water while we’re here, there’s also pump out
if you needed that… we don’t we don’t cos we don’t have a pump out. So we’re going to do all that, grab a cup of tea and then I think we should go and find somewhere to moor for
tonight…. And then cook tea. And then cook tea. I’m hungry… Yeah…. Okay bye… Bye! [Music] We are… we’re going as far as we going today
or we’ve gotten as far as we go in today. We’re just after Bridge 90, it’s Ollerton Bridge
there’s actually three Ollerton bridges I think just before Cherry Tree, just
before Blackburn. So we’re gonna try and do Blackburn in one go tomorrow. Get
through the damn place. Up at seven o’clock and like Vrooooooom! there was Blackburn.
But for today that’s it, it’s been a bit weird hasn’t it? I’m knackered.
We’ve done nothing… Doh! I did a lock. So….. the Johnsons Hillock or Johnson’s Hill lock or Johnson’s Hill locks are Johnson’s Hill Locks, we still no nearer, the man from the
CRT says it’s now just Johnson locks and not Hill Locks anymore, he just says it’s the Johnson locks. I disagree.
What did the sign say? The sign said… well it at the bottom it says Johnson’s
Hill locks and then at the top it says Johnson’s Locks. Hobson’s choice I guess, so stick your
comments down below everybody’s got an opinion, they’re a bit like backsides.
Everybody’s got one but you don’t really want to look at it [Laughing] I like it.
But stick it down below anyway we’ll have a look. So it’s actually quite nice here there’s some
visitor moorings about half a mile back, which is just as you coming out
like a wooded area, they’re really nice, They’ve got a pontoon. Yeah but there’s only two and they were both taken so we’ve just moved up a little bit further and as you can see
we’re about six foot way from the bank but that’s as good as we’re gonna get so
we don’t want to get too close to the M65 which is about half a mile that way
further on and then once you get past that you coming into kind of the
outskirts of Blackburn which we don’t want, we don’t want to moor in Blackburn
overnight. So we’re just gonna stay out here in the country.
So yeah, Johnson’s Hill Locks, Johnson’s Baby lotion, let’s call it Johnston’s Baby Lotion. Johnson’s Baby Lotion locks. Quite tough actually quite hard work. Yeah.
And between five and six the bottom lock on five or six is really leaky like… Leaky!
We thought that the gate just wasn’t closing properly
Yeah the gap was like that. But it closes at the top but there’s a gap like that
at the bottom and because there’s only two small pounds above it, no one small
pound above it… it leaks really badly so the upper pound was like eighteen inches
lower than it should be and a CRT boat was like that grounded on the side so
it doesn’t help that one of the ground paddles was out of order so it takes
longer to fill up and of course half of its leaking out the other end anyway so
the water in the pound above is just going like that. Oooooh it’s getting a bit
breezy isn’t it? so that was fun and there’s some rickety bridges just be careful if
you get those rickety bridges. But then… after that you get some moored boats
don’t ya? There’s quite a few moored boats just after the locks, it’s quite a long
mooring. There’s a lot of mooring yeah. but then it kind of just goes into this
wooded area and then it opens out and it really reminded me of the Lancaster Canal
Yeah it’s beautiful here. It is really nice, you wouldn’t think that we’re
between Chorley and Blackburn, Am starting to talk like a Lancastrian aren’t I. Chorley
and Blackurn [Laughing] I’m off! [Laughing] That’s frightening, isn’t it? So here we are we’ve got the washing out
finally some Twitter followers have been following us………. it’s amazing how
many people have been saying hello. It really is. It’s weird, it’s
mind-blowing. Right enough for today, tomorrow we’re going to tackle Blackburn…
well straight through Blackburn. No plans on stopping there… 42 miles per hour…
Yayyy, can you imagine the wash that’s going to create. Right we’re gonna leave you with
a little bit of where we are today Yes. So until tomorrow we’ll see you
later…….. Byeee! [Music] This doesn’t look like Blackburn [laughs]
or Burnley… it’s a bit quiet for Burnley isn’t it? It’s a bit quiet for anywhere. As you
might have gathered this is not Blackburn or Burnley. We’re actually a little bit
further forward than that. A lot further forward. About an hour, two hours after
you saw me jump back on the boat and the drone went Zeeeuuum! Something kind of
went click in my head again… in a big way. Big big way… so every now and then I have
these like mini breakdowns or meltdowns whatever you want to call them, just
stuff that’s triggered by the ASD. The anxiety builds up something triggers
this meltdown and it’s like a spiral there’s no control in it. Sometimes I can
limit how far and how deep the spiral goes, but sometimes it goes further and
further and further and it goes to a point where I have very if any control
over what happens. It’s embarrassing to talk about because
nobody likes to think that they’re not in control of their own mind and it’s
probably happened twice hasn’t it now? Yes. Once was in 2005 was it? Roundabout then.
A second time was that night…. Wow! It was a bad one, I don’t remember much of it. I remember a few things. I remember not arguing but it wasn’t that one of us had
done something wrong I was on this spiral and it was just uncontrollable
and it went further than I think it’s ever gone before. I’m not able to regulate my emotions
when I get like that and it’s a pity because it’s like we have solar panels
on the top of the roof and that kind of harnesses all the energy coming in from
the Sun and turns it into electricity and we can use it it’s really good and useful….
I wonder where it came from [laughs] and I just wish there was a way we could
harness all the kind of the the spiraling negative energy that kind of
saps away, I wish there could harness that and usually creatively somehow for
good rather than the way always turns out and that night it turned out really
bad. To the point where I was battering myself round at my head with a shoe to
try and knock myself unconscious, just because I couldn’t cope with what was
going on, I didn’t know what to do, I didn’t know what to say I couldn’t take
in information Shaun was upset beyond belief….. and I didn’t know what to do.
And it’s kind of a known thing amongst people with autism to to do that kind of
thing but it’s the second time that’s happened… not good… but it happened a few
days ago and things are better now so no feeling sorry for me…. No, oh are you
feeling better soon, because this is all… So no comments like that! this happens it
happens and we said at the beginning warts and all and that’s why we’ve told
you and we said on social media that we are having about time and that’s why
we’ve explained it in this vlog, so no feeling sorry for me we move on we’re
fine again now everything’s good and if you’ve liked the vlog as normal, give
it a thumbs up and comments, feedback, no sympathy or anything like that just
positivity down below click the bell and YouTube will let you know every time we
release a brand new vlog…. it’s Friday’s come on you know that by now. 4 o’clock
And we will see you next week. On with the outtakes WoooooHooooo! Today we are… wondered what we’re going on
then…….. Mumbling. Thought you were taking the crap! And I did
Ready? If you are mooring here by where the ice cream. aye yeah…. We’re doing the sway again Woah!
You’re going the opposite way. Woah, Way, Woah Way! We’re swaying. Stop it….
Need a bit of Mambo going into it don’t we? Ooooh that’s a big Bull… Ooooh it’s actually a real Bull
Yeah that is massive isn’t it Errrr and that’s it
I don’t know if that’s it for this vlog or not. Your mind but then didn’t it…. it did. Zeeuuum! Errrrr Do you know what, for once if you want… give it a thumbs down.
I’ll send his Mum round. Yeah. You don’t want my Mum to come round [Laughing]
We have it all on keeping her away from visiting us. Why do you think we move every day [Laughing]
She watches these as well. Give it a thumbs up. She says she does. And we’re gonna try and get
through Blackburn Blackburn what we’re Blackburn 3 Accrington Stanley…. Nil
we’re hungry, [beeep] and need a shower. Carry on…. Can’t have that. [Jazz Music]

100 thoughts on “61. Johnson’s Hill Locks by Narrowboat! Colin Opens Up About Mental Health and Self-Harm.

  1. You have captured that energy and funneled it into this wonderfully helpful and creative media that i am sure has reached at least one person who has benefited with your share in a way that probably can not be relayed. keep up the great work. live life. you both are a wonderful team lean on each other even though sometimes it feels like only one person is carrying the load. may your weather be fair, your travels broad, and your boat be narrow! PS have you looked into deep pressure or squeeze therapy to alleviate over-stimulation?

  2. what a lovely pair of guys you are, I suffer sometimes,and being near the water always helps me feel calm,good luck chapsxx

  3. Another wonderful video guy's and man your both sporting some nice tan's keep that up and your going to have to make a trip to California to show them off, glad to see your both doing well take care and give Dilon a treat for me ๐Ÿ˜‰

  4. Of course, when they repair the gate they will have to lock Johnson's Hillock Locks with the special Johnson's Hillock Locks locks

  5. Fabulous vlog as always, with great scenery and wildlife. I always feel peaceful when I watch your vlogs and want to be out there cruising too! Keep up the good work ๐Ÿ™‚ xx

  6. You two are cool. I am so proud of the matter of fact way you treat mental illness. Folk are helped by this. So, big hugs to you both. Wincing? Tough. ๐Ÿ˜€

  7. Another great vlog from you two. Colin you are great and we donโ€™t think less of you cause we ALL have our own issues

  8. Caring is not "sympathy" but appreciation. It is a recognition of our common humanity and the universal wish that we all be happy. Your honesty and genuineness make it easy to recognize that we do care and do wish you the best.

  9. Did you remember your passport to go from Yorkshire to Lancashire otherwise they might not let you out. ๐Ÿ˜‚Your camera and drone footage gets better and better, are there places where you canโ€™t fly a drone along the canal? You and Shaun make a great team…not forgetting Dillon.โค๏ธ๐Ÿณ๏ธโ€๐ŸŒˆ

  10. Don't ever be embarrassed. Fantastic footage again, you have a great eye, a wicked sense of humour and the love you have for each other is amazing to be part of. Thanks for the warts and all eagerly anticipated updates. Oh looks like I found your dictionary. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ˜„

  11. Brilliant funny episode by the way I didn't know Narrow boats carry life boats ,anxiety is a dreadful thing to deal with I know! you deal with it the best way you can .๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘

  12. You guys make me smile on bad days. Meltdowns suck and are truly overwhelming. Thank God they don't occur often! I mostly have shutdowns. Thanks for sharing!

  13. Another great VLOG and very personal. I don't want to seem like a protective parent, but I hope the work involved by the two of you in producing these VLOG's is not adding to the stresses. I think that is the first time I've seen Dillon not panting.

  14. Great personalities, a pleasure to watch thank you. Stunning edit and great scenery…..even making me fall in love with the UK again after 15 yrs living abroad.

  15. P.S. Let me knowย if you everย release a music compilation, your choice of background music is majestic:-)

  16. Hay don't be embarrassed you are helping a lot of people especially. Me it's good to know I'm not alone thankyou

  17. Thank you for sharing the tough part. It helps all of us to know it's a normal challenge, even for folks who are happy and enjoying life.

  18. I want to give you both a great big hug! You are extremely brave to talk about this on such a public forum.
    I transitioned while working on an offshore drilling rig, I still do that job. I talk openly to the people I work with about it all, mental health issues, suicide attempts etc… It's hard and emotionally draining but these 'tough guys' have never met anybody like me and it surprises me always of the support I get from them. So, as hard as it is, I want to see your wart's and all, as the more people who are prepared to talk openly about mental health the less stigma there will be. I also believe as mental health issues are better understood by the wider public people will treat other better.
    A mate I've known and occasionally worked for for over 25 years told me a few years back he has Aspergers. Suddenly him being the ass everybody thought he was made sense. I now understood him better, and didn't think his moods where just the result of him being a dick. It actually made us closer friends.

  19. So do I, hug I mean! My hubby and I know where you are both coming from and it can be very difficut to talk about, so hats off to both of you for being so open. Thanks for sharing on social media, I suffered from depression and still can have odd moments, (Mark thinks I'm odd anyway). Mark has Bi-polar and does keep things from me but I can usually tell when he's not quite right. So greatest respect to both of you and please keep the Vlog going I just love all of it, we will get on the canals soon so many thanks for keeping me inspired!

  20. Both of you, quite a sharing. More courage than I have. Having gifting at times comes with a burden and you both have great gifts. Lord bless. Bob Jarrard (USA)

  21. Thank you for the insight, Colin. I now understand my wife a little better. She's never been diagnosed but I'm sure she suffers from a milder form of something similar. She cannot stand much excitement and has nut much tolerance for adrenaline.

  22. I've been starting to watch your vlogs as my mum has bought a narrowboat, and I was fascinated by how yours was made. I too have Aspergers and I completely understand what goes on with a meltdown as I have them myself. I find once I have one its like my brain has restarted and its ready to conquer the world again.

  23. What I will say is… Colin, you are very lucky to have Shaun by your side. Shaun seems very patient and understanding and I'm glad you have him there for support, not every partner can be as helpul. You two bring out the best in each other.
    xoxo
    Katt ^,,^

  24. Hi Chaps, micro detail time again. 10.19 on the vog, funny bright triangle on a hillside on right side of the canal, any ideas what it is. Could be an alien spaceship come to probe you.

  25. There are so many beautiful aspects to your vlog. Your honesty about illness brings a lot of โ€œahaโ€ moments to many viewers who can deeply relate. I love how you balance each other & bolster one another up during these life moments. Safe travels gentlemen!

  26. You guys are awesome all positive thoughts here!!! Keep on Boating (or barging, what's the right phrase? Hmm). Catching up with your videos I'm behind, loving them all. X

  27. Re. "Everyone has an opinion " – hehehe So ….. Timelapse!: I left a comment on an earlyer episode about how I can see the great amount of work you must be putting into your super-super excellent vlog… and again: Big thank you for your really pro work!!! Also on an earlier episode I did enjoy the long sequences of timelapse… They gave a really nice "sailing feeling" for us enjoing everything from the couch.
    Love you guys, all the best -! wether it's in Burney, Blackburn or Yorkshire and beyond(?), Dont't forget to free the weed (from the propeller that is)! ๐Ÿ™‚

    BTW Re.emptying toilet pot: "Cablecart" as a Cable is what you leave in the loo.

  28. In a peculiar way I has the sense from your comments that Blackburn has a bad reputation. Wondered if that might've cintributed!? I do feel both of you being open has a hugely beneficial contribution to your vlog. Thanks

  29. So weโ€™ve caught up. And enjoyed all. Thumbs up for all. Should be double thumbs up for this one. Cos youโ€™ve come through it and done so much. Great resilience even if you might not see it. And great support from Shaun. Well done. Great team.
    Now we have twiddle our thumbs until the next on Friday. ๐Ÿ˜ Take care. C&L

  30. What is Aspergerโ€™s syndrome?

    Aspergerโ€™s syndrome (AS) is one of a group of neurological disorders known as autism spectrum disorders (ASDs). AS is considered to be on the mild end of the spectrum. People with AS exhibit three primary symptoms:

    having difficulty with social interaction
    engaging in repetitive behavior
    standing firm on what they think
    focusing on rules and routines

    Some people with ASDs are classified as high-functioning. High-functioning autism means that these individuals donโ€™t have delayed language skills and cognitive development that is typical of many people with ASDs.

    Often, individuals diagnosed with AS have normal or above normal intelligence. In addition, people with this condition are frequently able to be educated in mainstream classrooms and hold jobs.

    Hey the first symptom explains your shyness talking to new people as you said couple of weeks ago

  31. I'm so glad you talk so openly about your mental health Colin. I so rarely get to hear from others that have a similar experience to mine. Your videos are so interesting, and lovely and relaxing too ๐Ÿ™‚ I really hope I can own a boat one day.

  32. Have you two considered a aluminum walk ( gang plank ) to get from boat to shore when is distance to to great to jump? As in this video?

  33. I have thought recently (the last yr or so) that I might have a mild form of multiple personality (I have had stress induced depression a few times-I am not normally depressed). I often get into discussions with myself (closer to heated debates really) about how I feel, what I will and won't do, eat, think etc. Unfortunately the 'I don't care' personality is the dominant one,

    I have found that if I don't push things they will eventually happen. If need to eat and that means preparing food, my (what I consider my other self) other self will decide that is too much effort and though I want to do it I often have to just wait till I get up and make food(often it is the lack of thinking about it that makes it happen). Some of the conversations can be rather interesting though they are usually debating to either do or not do something.

  34. My wife and I are blessed with a 17yo SON with ASD (who's graduating this year )
    Believe me when I say We completely understand the meltdowns ,
    ๐Ÿ’– To both of you โœŒ๐Ÿ˜Ž

  35. shit happens my friend chin up fuck it and crack on you have to, you have a great partner and this aint sympathy know where your coming from not as bad as you mine is depression just sometimes you feel like trashing all and everything but that could work out bloody expensive so i give myself a good kick up the arse stick a smile on my face and let everyone think all is a ok. take care both look forward to the next

  36. I like that you share it all. My spouse suffers from depression and it isn't her fault, but it happens sometimes kind of suddenly. We make our way through, as you guys do too. Life is life and we all have things to deal with.

  37. You wanna be carefully mentioning the Weed box all those young stones in their haze of stonedness might break in looking for weed haha c

  38. We had our one & only canal barge experience in that neck o the woods! we hired a narrowboat from some people in Chorley over a Easter bank holiday weekend.
    we went as far as Burnley & turned around & came back.
    Some great memories & some bad ones! PC Plod were on the towpath around Blackburn looking for a Mini they were chasing by police car then on foot.
    We said we just scraped over it 200 yards away & you could see the headlights still on underwater.
    Apart from not closing the paddles on one lock by mistake & virtually emptying a section of canal Oops! a lock keeper doing his nut at us it was a very enjoyable weekend.
    Really like to watch your vlogs on the canal they're very informative.

  39. Hi Guys. Just catching up with all your vlogs. I am very impressed. You two are a great couple and I take my hat off to you for being able to talk about things. You both ooze positivity so I wish you EVERY success for the future. Greetings from Scotland.

  40. Thank god, no not god 'cos I'm not a believer, but any way thank somebody or something that someone like Colin can come out as someone with mental issues. When I was a lad my Dad was carted off to Stafford Mental hospital but now I can talk about and even feel proud to be just that little bit odd. It gives us nutters a unique perspective and, sometimes as in Colin's case, a creative edge over sane folk. And when it gets too much I've always got MaryJane to help me. You heard right folks at 72 I'm still a dope user, proud of it and, what's more, still alive – yippee! So when the doctor can't help I recommend you roll up a spliff, sit on the back of your boat and watch the world go by.

  41. Funny guys. How do you know that I live at Cherry Tree………one of several in Sheffield. or where I use to holiday in Kent as a kid,

  42. I find it very good that youโ€˜re talking about your โ€šmeltdownsโ€˜ so openly. For people who donโ€˜t have such problems itโ€˜s hard to understand how it works and how people are feeling who have such problems. I feel for Sean though. It must be very hard to see your partner like that.

  43. Great stuff thanks for the honesty and you guys are getting on with life and making vlog fun you've been together thick and thin so enjoying sharing your lives and for us to seeing how canal life is ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ˜

  44. DON'T BE ASHAMED ABOUT IT OR TALKING ABOUT IT – did you hear that????? The more you talk the more everyone will try and understand what you go through. I'm sure all the rest of your followers are 100% behind you. Look after each other boysโคโค๐Ÿ˜ข๐ŸŒž

  45. Personally speaking, I understand, maybe different "letters" but the effectively the close enough. You are amazing and honest, took me decades to share with loved ones.. What I found comfort in was finding out I was not alone, you are not. 27 years I think you said, Sean is amazing.. ๐Ÿ™‚ a keeper

  46. I love your honesty cuz I'm trying to get my son thru times as u described. An I want to thank you both for showing me love an patience an lil time will do best. Thanks isn't thanks enough….but I'll send a wee bit of love an hugs to go with it !!!!๐Ÿ˜š๐Ÿ˜œ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’ž

  47. You guys are so relaxing to watch and hear. Couple of your videos before bed puts me in a good place for dropping off to sleep. Keep the videos coming please.

  48. I had to chuckle at your analogy on opinions. I have always liked and used…"opinions are like belly buttons, everyone has one, but no one really cares about yours". Stay warm gentlemen.

  49. Sorry to hear of your problems with your Johnsons. I hope that gets sorted soon. ๐Ÿ™„ And thanks for the warts and all. Hollers.

  50. as someone who selfharmed and still suffers from feeling lost and depression, you two are a fresh rain on a summer day for me! Thank you so much for your videos, I now want to visit england and go for a few rides on narrowboats!

  51. My respect for you goes up and up Colin ….keep talking about it….you are so lucky to have Shaun with you …( don't tell him that it might go to his head).

    I love Johnson Hillock….really pretty with its white bridges and lovely scenery too. (I gave only been twice 1981 and 2013) but I remember it well.

  52. Another very honest vlog of your condition. Keep talking about it Colin, you help so many people understand. Love to you both and Dillon โคโคโค๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘

  53. Gratitude for your honesty and openness, and this video was the best so far for really helping me understand how the locks work thanks to the excellent aerial footage. What was that one swirling thing in the water? Was that part of what makes the lock system work? I am still watching through all your old videos and keep hoping there will be one that really explains how the locks work, because I kind of get it but not 100%. I know, I should just Google it, haha! Thanks for another great video.

  54. Watching this before I brave the weather this morning. It's a frigid -23C (feels like -27C) Valentine's Day in Canada. Thanks for the warmth of your company this morning.

  55. I don't subscribe to many Channels. Enjoy the honesty. You 2 are a good laugh as well.

  56. brains and their bloody complicated wiring, not very fixable, not easy to understand, complex, and some of that is genetic… like way back to hunter/gathering genetics. What increased the survival back in that time is now what is making life far more complicated for some. That rapid thinking, multi-directional thinking/brain ability probably made the difference for survival. But it's not so workable or easy to deal with in our modern life. I think we need to accept that some people just come 'hardwired' differently, it's not a mental illness or problem, but ancient survival tools that are why we humans survived and prospered and expanded the way we did.

  57. Is good to talk about and it does feel weird. You're not alone dealing with invisible illness. I think you really have to walk the walk to understand. Thanks for being honest it helps more than you may know to hear someone else share their story. Turning into a big fan of the Foxes. Colin. Well done. Much love from us to you as we feel the love from both of you.

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